I’m just a little tired….

Of nothing EVER working out in my favor with a guy. Basically…. My friend set me up with a friend of hers. He was really nice and we went out once and hit it off GREAT. We had never met so when we went out for the first time it was awkward at first, but after a while it was like we had known each other forever. We even held hands, and needless to say…. I started crushing and I thought he felt the same. But then he tells me he doesn’t. I don’t understand. His excuse? “It was a first date. I have the right to figure things out don’t I?” I can’t even. Why is it that I can never find a nice guy? I see my friends and they all get guys that like them and they date and they’re happy. Why is it that I get so close but then…. Nothing. I just continue to get hurt and I don’t understand why it keeps happening.

Not only do I get hurt, but it continues to lower the self esteem that I don’t have. I’m so tired of constantly feeling ugly and fat and worthless and I’m tired of people walking over me. I’m just tired.

Whatever.

ruperts:

lecoeurs:

she loves louis. a lot. she also loves harry, a lot too. she calls them both husband so there’s something strange going on there, a threesome, probably. hope they are all happy.

this is now on my sidebar, because mary, this is the best description of me i’ve seen in quite a while.